Many of you know that I've been on a weight loss journey for some time now. I lost about 25 pounds and then when we moved back to Georgia I gained it back. I had started to workout again and started changing my eating habits again then my sister passed away. It's been downhill, or should I say uphill, ever since. I'm now at my highest ever and feel like crud most of the time.
Today in America we celebrate Independence Day. While this day technically celebrates the adoption of the Deceleration of Independence on July 4, 1776, in my mind it is a celebration of so much more. It's a celebration of all who have fought for our country past and present to guarantee our freedoms.
Tonight my family will attend a Salute to the Nation Ceremony and a fireworks display. I think it will be a somber occasion. I will tear up and mostly likely cry. I always tear up when we sing the national anthem but it will be more than that, the tears will flow for what is lost. This year my sister is no longer with us and it's our first time celebrating the 4th without her. My nephews (her children) are with their daddy so it will just be my little family and my parents. Just another one of the many "firsts" we must endure without her.
In my mind, Independence Day is the first holiday we celebrated since I got home. Sure there were other holiday's between the time we got back in April and July and we did do things for those but this one we got the family together at my house. I made some treats, we went to an outdoor concert, and watched fireworks. It was a special time. It was the first time in years that our little family got to celebrate the 4th with fireworks because at Fort Wainwright AK, there's too much light in the summer to set off fireworks.
We love and miss you Beth!!!!
(Beth eating one of my yummy treats 4th of July 2012)
Awesome day yesterday!! Two of my daughters were baptized! My little one actually made the decision to accept Jesus in December but we didn't have a church home. We started trying out some churches and then my sister got sick and passed away and we quit looking. We started attending a church an hour away with my parents to help support them and decided that's where God wants us. So my little one was finally able to publicly proclaim her salvation :) The older one actually JUST accepted Jesus on SATURDAY night!! Praise God! He is so GOOD! They were able to be baptized on the same day.
We actually had two other Salvation's Saturday night as well. It's not my place to tell their story but I can tell you that there mama would be oh so happy if she were still with us. I believe she is in Heaven rejoicing that she will one day see her children again.
It's still a hard pill to swallow, Beth's death, but there is still JOY in the storm!