Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Tug of War

It was pointed out to me today that I need to stop worrying about some things in my life and just give it to Him. I have to admit that is a daily struggle for me, sometimes a by the minute struggle. I am constantly fighting for control and to be honest that was the hardest thing for me to let go of when I put my life in His hands. I remember crying with my friend Lenora about the control issue before I asked him into my life. It was 2002 and it was so very hard for me to do.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Are You a Runner?

Are you a runner? I'm sure not! That wasn't always the case though. I remember loving to run in elementary school. I specifically remember the exhilaration I felt at winning some little sprint against some boys during a race on field day. I think I must have been in fourth grade then and if I remember correctly I was legs, legs, legs. Long, lanky legs.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Lighter


You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade. ~ Tenth Avenue North

This song just really spoke to me today... this VERSE in the song really spoke to me today. It just rang a chord in my heart and I'm not exactly sure why. I don't think it's about me though... or is it? 

I've made mistakes and I know that I am more. I know that I've been remade. I rest secure in my love for my God and his love for me. 

But...... I tend to forget that when thinking about other people. I think this song for me today was more than talking about me, it is a reminder to me that EVERYONE is more than the choices they make, more than their past mistakes, and more than the problems that they create. This is a song of forgiveness and of rebirth and although I didn't think I was holding on to any un-forgiveness, maybe I was.

And I know feel very overwhelmed and so much LIGHTER than I did a few moments ago. Does that even make sense to you?