Monday, January 17, 2011

Are you Spiritually Malnourished?

Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food 

I recently started a new Bible study based on the book "Made to Crave" by Lysa TerKeurst. I mentioned this book a few posts back. I was very excited to start the study today! You can go to Melissa Taylor's blog to read more about the study or to jump in. Since it just started today you should have no problems getting up and running. Just buy the book through Amazon in Kindle format (you don't have to have a kindle! you can just get the kindle app for your computer or smartphone).

I also start another study tomorrow with a group of local friends. We are going to do the study by Sara Horn called "Tour of Duty". I'm really excited about this one too but for a different reason. It's a Bible study for military wives so it will be done with my close friends here at our duty station. I'm excited about this study for the fellowship and the deepening of friendships that I hope will happen. I don't really get the feeling that this study is going to really bring me a lot closer to God but I don't think that's really the purpose, for me at least.

Made to Crave really speaks to my soul right now. I wanted this book before I even knew what it was about and I even purchased it for Christmas for my sister because I feel so drawn to it.

I have decided that I will blog about my journey through these studies. Of course I won't be sharing details discussed in my local study, I would NEVER betray the confidence of my friends, but I will be sharing my own personal revelations. Today I'll only talk about Made to Crave simply because I haven't really delved into the other study yet.

Made to Crave

Today our assignment was to read the introduction and share what really stood out for us. Well, I didn't share on her board although I will go share a link to this blog after I'm finished posting it. I just don't want to type out more than I need to because I have so much on my plate right now.

It isn't the number on the scale that is the issue, the issue is really how you feel mentally, spiritually, and physically. How do I feel at 200 pounds? Is that the same way I felt at 160 pounds? Well, actually, it is. I felt just as bad mentally at 160 as I do now at 200. Physically I'm much worse off. I have aliments (extreme acid reflux and high blood pressure) that would probably be eliminated if I just lost the weight. A point made in the book is to ask yourself, "How am I doing?". I've never asked myself that but the answer isn't shocking. I'm not doing great. I'm ok in most areas of my life, I get by but I want to do more than just get by. I want to LIVE and I want to stop wasting my time and energy in this fat body. My youngest will soon be 5 years old and I've been sick with this stupid acid reflux since just before her 1st birthday. At that time I was so sick I couldn't hardly eat anything and lost 15 pounds over a 2 week period. Man I wish I still weighed 185 :)! I don't have the stamina to get out and do things with my girls. That's just terrible!!!

We are overweight physically but underweight spiritually. We are suffering from spiritual malnutrition. I know I am! Oh I am trying but at best it's lukewarm Christianity. My love of God is NOT evident in my daily life. I do not crave Him above all else. I am very clearly like the rich man in Mathew 19. At first I didn't think I was, after all I'm not wealthy but I think the real point is that we have to want Him more than we want anything else and I have a hard time with that. I usually read my Bible as an afterthought at the end of the day, while I'm lying in bed trying to get sleepy enough to fall asleep.

I have to DENY myself to follow Jesus! WHAT is hindering my walk with Him? Food is my definitely a problem area for me. Those little tiny chocolate cheesecakes at the commissary call my name even when I am not there. How is it that I hear the "voice" of a cheesecake more than I hear the voice of my Lord, my SAVIOR?

One last thought.... it NEVER dawned on me to actually ASK in prayer for a desire to be healthy or for a desire to know Him better! Crazy I know but now that Lysa has pointed out that I actually can do that, you better believe that I will have it tattooed on if that helps me to remember to ask without ceasing!