Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Be Unreasonalbe

The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man.
~George Bernard Shaw
Today I went on a mission to find a favorite quote. Jillian Michaels is hosting a giveaway on Twitter for her new game and I just REALLY want to win that game. Well, I did when I first started looking for a cool quote that I love, but I decided to just go out and buy the game. So, if I win it I'll give it away as a gift I suppose, pass the blessing on to someone else. 

While I'm talking about buying the game I have to tell you that my lovely daughter paid for half of it as my "early" Christmas gift! Just today she received a phone call from an organization here on base that she won a door prize drawing from a Halloween event she went to. Her prize was a movie ticket and a $20 gift card to Gamestop. She very generously told me that I could use her gift card for my game.

Back to the topic at hand... The quote! I really don't keep a list of quotes that I like and I rarely remember them when I do see ones that I like, that's why I had to go find one. I saw lots of really great quotes for really great people but this one really struck a cord with me the moment I saw it. I just can't get over how very profound it is and how it seems to just fit me! 

I guess I'm the unreasonable woman because I try and try to adapt the world to me. This obviously backfires quite often as the world does not like to adapt but it really is a necessary thing in order to have any change. How many of you are the reasonable person who doesn't like to rock the boat, just keeping quiet and accepting what everyone tells you as fact? 
Why is it that some change, like the changes our country has gone through in the last couple of decades been so easy yet so bad for us but change to improve our quality of life and be healthier so difficult?

It starts with the person.... Getting unhealthy was easy, getting healthy isn't so easy! I am going to focus my "activist" personality on my own body, mind, and spirit and continue with a newly renewed conviction to be a model of change in my family, friendships, and community. 
Oh and just a side here... why is it that two of my friends have seen the BL contestant from Alaska in the last couple of weeks but I haven't! Talk about being a force for change! From what they say, he's lost a LOT of weight! I was really hoping he would have made it on to the show. 

Who's going to be unreasonable with me?!?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

First Day Back at School

We started school today and I have to admit I lost my cool a couple of times with Tabitha. It's just cause she wasn't paying attention, rushing through, and making simple mistakes that could  have been avoided. I had asked her to stop and tell me if she didn't understand or remember something and she ignored those instructions. Ugh!! If she just would have stopped and asked me to remind her it would have been a lot better for her.

Friday, August 13, 2010

God Inspired

The last few weeks have been nothing short of amazing in some regards. I've been scared to death taking over as FRG Leader when our current Leader stepped down. I prayed about it a lot before I did it and talked about it a lot! I'm sure my husband wished that I would shut up about it, well, I'm sure he still wishes that since I'm still talking about it all the time. I ended up agreeing to do it because it just felt right and it seemed to be where God wanted me to be.

I pretty much have no doubt in my mind that He wanted me right where I'm at. I believe it was to teach me and for me to teach others. I am learning so very much about myself, about other people, and about life in general. We're never too old to learn!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

I've read 25% of the Bible!

I can't believe that I'm sticking to this! It is amazing to me that I have actually read 1/4 of the Bible. I have learned so much and have so much left to learn. My understanding in some things is pretty basic but I know that He reveals what we need to know when we need to know it and that I could read the same verse 100 times and He could show me 100 different things on one verse alone. I wonder what He has in store for me next :).

It has been a little rough at times. I didn't read too much last week but managed to catch up this week. Some heavy duty prayers must be going up for me! Thank you Lord!!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Bible in 90 Days Check-In

Ok, I admit it, I was 5 days behind in my reading on Friday. I've done A LOT of reading since then and I'm almost caught up. Now I'm just a day behind.

It's been an interesting read this last week. As I'm reading about the Israelites circling the city once a day for 6 days and then 7 times on the 7th day, I am actually amazed that they followed that instruction. What would I have done? Without a doubt I would have questioned it. I would have been like, and you want me to do that why? That makes no sense to me. Why in the world would I have to do such a foolish thing, can't you just let us go in and take the city now?

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Busy Life

The last week has been so busy! I feel like I haven't even had time to breath and everything is starting to blur together. I am four days behind on my Bible reading! I was going to take today and simply do pretty much nothing. My intention was to catch up on my Bible reading, clean the house a little, exercise a little, and relax a little. Most of that didn't happen!

I spent several hours working on my daughters computer, because she somehow got a virus, so even though I did get to relax a little it doesn't feel as if I did. Plus I slept until 10AM and by four I was so tired I could hardly hold my eyes open.

I am very thankful that I did not have to go anywhere today. Tomorrow is another story altogether! I have a meeting in the morning and in the afternoon. I forgot to tell my husband that I'm going to need the van tomorrow so I'm sure he's not going to be too happy with me in the morning.

I've managed to read about 4 chapters of the Bible but that barely scratches the surface of how much I wanted to get accomplished with that today.

 Tomorrow I will make the time to catch up! Tomorrow will be a better day!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Discovery

I seem to be discovering new things about myself a lot lately. That's not a bad thing but it kind of stinks that some of the stuff I'm learning is bad. Just tonight I was reading a book, a book about marriage, my favorite kind, and God used that opportunity to show me that I am judgmental.

Now I know that you're thinking yeah, right. You're a 35 year old woman with a grown daughter and you expect us to believe that you JUST realized that you are judgmental. I really do!

I've always been judgmental toward my family, that's no secret. My Mom and my husband bear the brunt of that judgment. As I said the book I was reading is about marriage and so it was speaking of being judgmental toward your spouse but God decided to show me that I am much more judgmental in other areas of my life than I realized.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Week One Complete!

Wow! That's the only word that comes to mind when I think about the bible reading I have completed in the last seven days. I have absorbed so much information and I have started a list of things to go back and look more in depth at when the 90 days are over.

Genesis was very easy for me to get through, Exodus not so much. It was long and tedious with many building instructions! I'm already having the same thoughts of Leviticus, only it's laws and instructions for offerings. Phew! I'm sure glad we aren't required to do all that! I kept thinking to myself that I'd surely starve to death if I had to sacrifice my food source because of the sins I committed! I'm also very happy that we live in a different time because it seems that the people of the Old Testament didn't have a relationship with God. Maybe I don't have all the information to form that opinion yet but that sure it the way it seems. They had to go through the Priests in order to gain atonement for their sins, sounds like the Catholic Church to me, instead of having a direct line to our Father.

Who knows, I may come back and read this post in October (after I've read the whole Bible) and see just how wrong I had it. Even if I do, that will be OK because it's all a learning process. 

You can read more about the other bloggers who are completing this challenge over at Mom's Toolbox.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Get with the Program

I need to get with the program! The get healthy, lose weight program but I really can't do it on my own. I have tried, really I have. I did really well for about a month, was actually losing some weight. I was working out almost everyday and I had so much more energy. Truth be told, I also felt so much better about myself just because I was taking positive steps in the right direction and it made me feel downright proud of myself!

Then I got sick, actually I think it was Breanna who got sick first. It threw me off and then when I came down with it, it was a killer! All told I lost a month and lost all motivation. I started in January of 2010 and believe it or not, it wasn't a New Years resolution. I got the EA Active for the Wii for Christmas and I was determined to complete that 30 day challenge. I did well up until around the beginning of February and I've been off track since then. I can count on one hand the number of times I have worked out since then.

Friday, July 9, 2010

A New Desire

I am happy to report that I am through Genesis! I am ashamed to admit that this is the first time I've ever read the entire book. Last night I decided to read today's assigned reading, or rather I decided to read some of it. I sat down and started to read and then couldn't put the phone down - I have an application on my phone that has the reading plan in it along with the correct version of the Bible. I ended up reading all the way through today's reading last night.

I always heard people talk about how the Bible is like a novel but my experience hadn't been like that at all. I was never engrossed in it and the little I did try to read just did not hold my attention at all. Really I guess it's more the Old Testament that didn't hold my attention because I've read much of the New Testament when I was a teenager.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Growing Up

Have you ever said or done something and later wondered if you did the correct thing? Well that happened to me just last night and I'm sad to say that it has been happening to me a lot in my lifetime.

I'm not sure if my decision last night was a reaction to the frustration I have been feeling towards my oldest daughter or something that had to happen. I mean, I know it was a reaction but it is also not a surprise and the consequences had been laid out. She knew that if this continued that there would be a harsh consequence. Last night was very truly the last straw for me.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Blogging through the Bible in 90 Days

Today marks day one in my journey to read the Bible in 90 days. I know that many people don't agree with this but there is a lot about the Bible that I don't know about and this is the quickest way for me to get an introduction to everything. It also helps build reading the Bible into a faithful habit. I will be devoting at least an hour a day to reading. That doesn't include the time that I will spend delving further into the word and actually studying what caught my attention. I know that God will reach out to me through reading his word (no matter how quickly I do it) and also through my faithfulness. I expect many great changes in my life as a result of this.

I've already seen some trials and I'm sure there will be many, many more before this is over. Last night I became sick, nauseated and couldn't' sleep until the early morning hours. I had planned on doing my reading as soon as I work up but I slept in and had other things that needed my attention. I'm quite certain that was an attempt to derail me from following through but it didn't work! Today's reading has been finished and my heart is a little lighter because I didn't let anything stop me.

It's not too late to join us! What could God teach you in 90 days? Join us over at Moms Toolbox for more information and to sign up!

For those of you that don't know me, I'm Brandi. I am a 35 year old SAHM of three beautiful girls ages 18, 12, and 4. I have been married to my husband for 15 years and he is in the Army. I also homeschool my girls. We currently live in Alaska. Although I'm not a "new" Christian I kind of feel that I am. I was saved as a child and rededicated my life in 2002. It's been an off again on again thing since then. It is my hope and prayer that I will build some consistency with my walk though this challenge. My bible reading is almost nonexistent and my prayer life is sketchy at best. I do believe all that is going to change with this commitment!

Friday, July 2, 2010

A Childlike Acceptance

Last night I started another new bed time routine with Breanna. Now, I know that I should have been doing this all along but I'm beyond making myself feel guilty for my past mistakes. I introduced her to prayer. We said a very simple, "Now I lay me down to sleep" prayer and I guided her through her blessings and of course being a four year old she had to throw in some cartoon characters. After we said the prayer I explained that praying is like talking to God/Jesus and that they enjoy us talking to them. I told her that she could talk to Him whenever she wanted to. Whenever she is afraid, nervous, happy, sad, or any other reason she can think of.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Demonic Influence

Do you believe in spirits? What about not so good spirits? Do you believe that spirits can attach themselves to you? Well I do believe there are spirits and I do believe that are bad spirits and I believe they can and do attach themselves to you if there is an opening and attempt to influence you.

I've struggled with an unforgiving spirit within myself for years. I finally let that go a few weeks ago and did something tangible to actually show the other party that I had finally forgiven them. What starts happening after I did that? You got it.... thoughts came to my mind, totally out of the blue with no provocation what-so-ever.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

A WILD Ride

It's sometimes hard to describe my feelings, especially when it comes to the Army. Yesterday the girls and I had the opportunity to go see my husband in the field. They are out there for 10 days or something close to it anyway and Fathers Day was smack dab in the middle!

Now, I knew about the date for a couple of months before hand but it wasn't until last month when I started looking to June's calendar to figure out what was happening when that I actually put two and two together and figured out that Father's Day was going to happen while they were in the field.

Friday, June 18, 2010

A Task Completed

I was called on tonight to do my first real task since volunteering to be a co-leader with our FRG. I've been a key caller (that's someone who calls and lets a small portion of families in the unit know what's happening) for the last two years so I've made plenty of calls, and I've done some other helping out here and there but this was different.

Our current leader was away from her computer and she was getting a lot of calls from wifes not understanding the information that was being put out and we needed to get an email out to straighten up the miscommunication so she asked me to go ahead and do it.

I wrote it up and read it about 10 times, spell checked it three times, and almost called a friend to get her opinion of it. Then I thought to myself, "NO, I'm an adult and I know how to write a letter!". I know it's been a long time since I've done anything in a professional capacity but I can write a good letter. I was worried that might hinder me in this co-leader thing because sometimes I can come off as too professional when the situation calls for casual, but I guess when you need to get information out there the best thing you can do is be factual and professional. The casual type communication will come as well.

I'm pleased with this first task. I'm thankful that our current leader needed me to help out because she wasn't at home to do it. It's just the type of thing that I needed in order for me to believe that I can actually do this. Thank you Lord for giving me this task and for giving me the skills to handle it.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Avenging ourselves

Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave the way open for [God's] wrath; for it is written, Vengeance is Mine, I will repay (requite), says the Lord. But if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals upon his head. Do not let yourself be overcome by evil, but overcome (master) evil with good..... Romans 12:19-21 AMP

Today was a very big struggle for me as I'm sure the coming few days will be. My family was recently wronged and I have had a few moments of losing my temper and lashing out at the person who did the wronging but today took the cake. You know, I don't even know why I am speaking in circles here, it made the news and will soon be national news as some larger websites have picked up on it.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Unexpected Blessings

Today was pretty eventful in our home. First I received a comment from my mom on my last blog post. I was at a red light and decided to look at my email and there it was. Made me cry sitting there at the light (good kind of cry) but Tasha and her boyfriend were in the van too so I had to explain why I was suddenly crying.

I have always had a pretty rocky relationship with my Mom. We just rub each other the wrong way. I know that she loves me very much but we have a quarrelsome relationship. We are very quick to vocalize our anger and disappointments towards each other but very slow to show our love. So, to read those words from her was very special for me. I will always treasure them Mom! Thank you.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

A Sweet Song

Speak out to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, offering praise with voices [[a]and instruments] and making melody with all your heart to the Lord,... Ephesians 5:19 AMP


I had the opportunity to attend a womens event at our church tonight. I must say that it's a good thing that my friend Alicia agreed to go with me because I loath going to anything like this by myself! We arrived a little late and when we went in they had already started. I was still unsure exactly what this was going to be. All I knew is that we needed to bring a desert to share.

I was very pleasantly surprised! After we had our desert they did a door prize drawing (VERY thankful that I did NOT win - it's another issue of mine, I hate the attention being on me), and then we started singing! I LOVE to sing. I can't say that I'm very good at it but it does not stop me from belting those words out. Back home in Savannah I was in our church choir and I really loved it.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Seeking a more authentic life

I've been really trying to *fix* myself lately, or rather I have prayed and I believe God is working to fix me. He's really prompting me to get out of my comfort zone and make some profound changes. I suppose this has been an ongoing process my whole life and I'm finally at a point where I am ready to accept his helping hand in my life.

A couple of weeks ago I posted a long note on my Facebook page where I basically cried out to my friends and family. I really need a more authentic life.... I am seriously lacking in the friend department because I have refused to be real with people for the last few years. However, this is all changing.

I've been reading a book called Captivating (see the link in my sidebar to view the book) and God is really using this book to bring some traumatic stuff from my childhood to the surface so that I can let it go. At first I thought I was going to really have to dig into all the drama but I'm finding that he's allowing me to remember it and then he's lifting it right off my shoulders! I feel lighter than I have in years, happier and calmer.

Amazingly enough (and I just realized this while typing this out) he's given me just what I asked for, an authentic life! I've met a wonderful new friend, Barb @ The Forever Neighbor,and for the first time in a very long time I was able to really pour my heart out without fear of rejection. I totally believe that God put her in my life, I'll tell you more about that later but I have a point I'm making with this. An opportunity presented itself for me to step up and volunteer to be our FRG leader (that's a Family Readiness Group - my husband is in the Army). In order to be effective at this I'm going to have to be more authentic in my relationships with the other spouses and soldiers. I asked for more authentic relationships and He has answered in a very huge way. Thank you Lord!

I hope you'll add me to your prayer lists because I know I need it. I have taken on a huge responsibility and while I know that though Him all things are possible, I still hope you will prayer that I stay out of his way.