Reading through posts on Facebook this morning I came across this image. It was linked to a post over at Unveiled Wife. The image really struck me because I've never looked at it that way and it's so very true. I don't think it's always the case, but certainly more often than not, arguments do indeed happen when two people passionately defend themselves.
Many of you know that I've been on a weight loss journey for some time now. I lost about 25 pounds and then when we moved back to Georgia I gained it back. I had started to workout again and started changing my eating habits again then my sister passed away. It's been downhill, or should I say uphill, ever since. I'm now at my highest ever and feel like crud most of the time.
Today in America we celebrate Independence Day. While this day technically celebrates the adoption of the Deceleration of Independence on July 4, 1776, in my mind it is a celebration of so much more. It's a celebration of all who have fought for our country past and present to guarantee our freedoms.
Tonight my family will attend a Salute to the Nation Ceremony and a fireworks display. I think it will be a somber occasion. I will tear up and mostly likely cry. I always tear up when we sing the national anthem but it will be more than that, the tears will flow for what is lost. This year my sister is no longer with us and it's our first time celebrating the 4th without her. My nephews (her children) are with their daddy so it will just be my little family and my parents. Just another one of the many "firsts" we must endure without her.
In my mind, Independence Day is the first holiday we celebrated since I got home. Sure there were other holiday's between the time we got back in April and July and we did do things for those but this one we got the family together at my house. I made some treats, we went to an outdoor concert, and watched fireworks. It was a special time. It was the first time in years that our little family got to celebrate the 4th with fireworks because at Fort Wainwright AK, there's too much light in the summer to set off fireworks.
We love and miss you Beth!!!!
(Beth eating one of my yummy treats 4th of July 2012)
Awesome day yesterday!! Two of my daughters were baptized! My little one actually made the decision to accept Jesus in December but we didn't have a church home. We started trying out some churches and then my sister got sick and passed away and we quit looking. We started attending a church an hour away with my parents to help support them and decided that's where God wants us. So my little one was finally able to publicly proclaim her salvation :) The older one actually JUST accepted Jesus on SATURDAY night!! Praise God! He is so GOOD! They were able to be baptized on the same day.
We actually had two other Salvation's Saturday night as well. It's not my place to tell their story but I can tell you that there mama would be oh so happy if she were still with us. I believe she is in Heaven rejoicing that she will one day see her children again.
It's still a hard pill to swallow, Beth's death, but there is still JOY in the storm!
Anyone remember film rolls? Well I found the mother-load today! Seventeen rolls of 35mm, two disposable camera's, AND a 110 cartridge.
When someone you love passes away it's an eye opener. When someone that you love passes away that is also young, it's a huge eye opener. It makes you stare your own mortality in the face. I realized that I need to get my butt in gear and get my clutter taken care of because I don't want my family to have to deal with this crud on top of having to plan a service and mourn their loss. I want everything neat and organized for them.
Now I really haven't done much since Beth passed away to get my butt in gear. I guess it's been overwhelming enough just trying to do normal daily activities. But, I've got a week left before I start summer classes and I am going to take advantage of it.
Tim is off today so he wanted to go out to the garage and sort through his military stuff. I said I'd go with him and work on the other stuff out there. It's a disaster area. One of the things I really want to get organized is our pictures. I'm horrible at keeping pictures safe. I used to use photo albums and then moved to photo boxes and now they are just every where. Some are ruined because something got on them. I don't want my family to have a hard time finding photos to use in a photo show at my memorial when I am gone and I certainly don't want to have a hard time finding photos if I should need them for one of my family members.
I'm sure you can all see where I went wrong. I never should have started with pictures. I really should have started with just junk. Pictures bring back memories and make me sad right now. So, I'm inside taking a break.
When my parents are gone it will be my responsibility to keep the pictures and make sure the memories get passed on to the next generation. I need to get my butt in gear so that I won't fail at the job! First stop is getting all these rolls of film developed. I haven't owned a film camera in about 12 years!!!! I wonder what's on these rolls!!! I know some are going to be degraded but I think some will turn out. I'm finding somewhere to drop them off this afternoon. I'm excited to see what's on them.... it's almost like the anticipation of Christmas morning.